The Truth About Who You Really Are

“Beyond a certain point, the whole universe becomes a continuous process of initiation.” — Robert Anton Wilson.

Are you ready for the truth? Do you want to know who you really are? What the deep down you really is? What it really means to be a being who perceives an infinite reality using finite faculties? More than likely you are not ready, simply because a great majority of people are not ready. But just in case you are, and you, like Terence McKenna said, “have taken seriously the notion that understanding the universe is your responsibility, because the only understanding of the universe that will be useful to you is your own understanding,” then this article is for you.

Imagine that you are primordial energy itself. Visualize yourself moving at the speed of light from the embryonic singularity that was the big bang. You can neither be created nor destroyed, but you are constantly changing form. You become burgeoning galaxies. You become exploding stars. You become distinct planets. You become precious water and oxygen. You become the process of life itself. You become living organisms: plants, trees, animals. Then you become a peculiar type of animal called a human being that can actually name things, and label aspects of yourself.

That can actually break down your infinite structure through a crude trial and error process that reminds you of evolution. Then you become a unique human being, one with unique fingerprints and distinctive facial features. You are born on a particular date. You are given a particular name. You grow up with an idea of who you are, or who you might be, and that idea leads you, inevitably, to you sitting, wherever you happen to be sitting at this moment, reading this article.

The First Law of Thermodynamics is, “Energy can neither be created nor destroyed, but can change form.” This is also known as the law of conservation of energy. This is the truth of who you are. You are an aspect of this thermodynamics. You are the walking, talking, laughing, pissing, shitting personification of the energy inherent within the universe that’s been changing form since the beginning of time. Everything that you are made of was once in the fiery guts of a star.

The energy flowing through your body right now is the same exact energy that was blazing at the beginning of the universe. It simply went through many different forms to eventually come to enliven your mind body and soul with its current vitality. The real deep down you is a quantum singularity that’s longing, yearning, craving to observe itself in action, to become aware of itself in all its galactic glory. You are not a speck within the universe; you are the entire universe within a speck. Indeed, you are the universe trying to convince itself of itself.

Like Alan Watts said,

“What you do is what the whole universe is doing at the place you call here and now. You are something the whole universe is doing in the same way that the wave is something that the whole ocean is doing. The real you is not a puppet that life pushes around. The real deep-down you is the whole universe.”

You are energy that can neither be created nor destroyed, but that can, and will, change form. You changed form at the beginning of the universe. You changed form when you became a star. You changed form when you exploded your rich starry guts into what became the earth. You changed form, many times over, through the process of evolution. You changed form when you were born. And you will change form when you die.

Life is not crudely linear, it is vibrantly non-linear. Life has, and will always have, a non-linear dimensionality. There’s no escaping it. There is only relishing in its absolute non-linear beauty and elegance of form: love. Lest we fall into the trap of resenting the world through the manipulation of crude linearity and the idea of separation: fear.

I could go on and on talking about how the combined understanding of Heisenberg’s uncertainty principle, Schrödinger’s equation, Gödel’s Incompleteness theorem, quantum entanglement, the Two Slit Experiment, and the many-worlds interpretation of the quantum enigma all naturally lead to this conclusion, but that’s just linear claptrap vainly attempting to think non-linearly. There is even an eye-opening hypothesis (biocentrism) that reveals how life continues after death.

But all you really need to know is that the only way reality suffers from paradox is in the sense that you yourself are a walking, talking paradox. Reality itself involves our consciousness, and this creates paradox. Space and time are merely tools of our mind that we use to leverage meaning against meaninglessness. We ARE the primordial energy, the same energy that’s been kicking since the beginning of the universe, and that has gone through enough forms to become us (you and me) who are perceiving the universe (which is ourselves) unfolding.

At the end of the day, the nature of reality goes beyond the big bang theory, or any theory, really. This is because all human theories are inherently finite-bias-laden (finite-bias principle): they are based upon the false assumption that the universe is something that’s “out there” rather than inside us, which brings us full-circle back to the undeniable fact that we are an aspect of the universe perceiving itself. We are not merely independent, consciously aware beings perceiving the universe; we are interdependent aspects of the universe consciously perceiving itself. Like G. Spencer cryptically stated,

“The universe must expand to escape the telescopes through which we, who are it, are trying to capture it, which is us.”

So who are you? You are me. Who am I? I am you. We are Cosmos. We are the very fabric and structure of existence perceiving itself. But, and here’s the rub, so is everyone else. I’m not great because I KNOW this is who I am; I’m great because this IS who I am. And suddenly we are not so small.